I am absolutely fearful of becoming somebody's mama!
You may be questioning why and how it's possible if you know how much I love children. Let me explain. Other people's children are just that - other people's children. I am not held responsible for your child in the long run of things. I can spoil them and give them right back to you. Even the few I have permission to discipline - I can discipline, but your kid doesn't hold it against me cause I can be less strict than you and they don't live with me. Aside from these things, I also wonder if we can even afford children. I've spent time with other people's kids - them jokers want everything. Not that I'll give my kid(s) everything, BUT I want to at least be able to provide the basics. My other issue stems from my own younger days in which most people know very little, almost nothing about. No I wasn't abused in any way, BUT it wasn't the most pleasant some days. And out of those unpleasant days grew my fear of having a child especially a daughter. I can't imagine going through that again from any angle! Now my mom and I have a pretty good relationship, but back then - oh it was no secret that we had many, many issues. With all that said, I'm sure I'll be okay, but don't be surprised when sometimes I don't respond as excited as you may think I should about this. I'm seriously scared out of my mind! I also have a great support system so I'm really not as concerned as I would if I had any other family surrounding me and this baby. I am looking forward to this wonderful journey into and through parenthood ... woo hoo!
- End of Soft Moment -
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